His heart

slippery slopes

"we have grown in numbers, wealth, and power.. We have vainly imagined, in the deceitfulness of our hearts, that all these blessings were produced by some superior wisdom and virtue of our own. We have become too self-sufficient... too proud to pray to the God that made us!"


- sounds familiar? too familiar in fact. 
a bit of a conundrum really..

ah hah!

ok lightbulb moment... well, to be more exact, closer to vindication i would say. i knew there was something amiss.. just couldn't quite put my finger on it. you know the feeling right? it's like so close, it's just beyond your nose, but it's dark, so you can't see it. and then the lights (hence lightbulb moment) come on and...


ah hah!

running around to chase the wind

may sound like fun to kids. good exercise perhaps. 


another day has passed you by. another fork in the road. 
you are trying to move on, but you cannot bear the load.


with hindsight, it is obvious, the load is not ours to carry. 
we are quick to forget the giver, instead focusing on the gifts.
trying to do so much on our own, trying to do what (we think) is right..


the best medicine is often bitter and hard to swallow.
obedience is better than sacrifice.
oh great now i'm writing cryptically.. i am really getting old.