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this is the last straw. there's nothing left to beg for. sucks man. never thought of myself as kiasu. or disobedient for that matter. we're taught, love thy enemy. so i guess in my case, drink is the enemy. but now all that won't do.

Why does it all have to be just when i'm about to travel in europe.. where water is more expensive than beer... and then of course, what about the amsterdam plan? Then again, having a kiasu mentality, is not right either.. because, THERE IS NO CHOICE. this is hair tearing, head banging, balls to the walls, downright frustrating. i know i've been trying to live the healthy lifestyle.. but it seems like i'm far from it.

i'm beginning to sound like that robbie williams song.

oh lord, make me pure.. but not yet.