alternative lacking..

is a good thing? i guess sometimes closed doors point(think force) you in the right direction. hahah. Sometimes i find it a little embarassing when i find it so difficult to listen to directions especially with the relative peace and stability i enjoy. but then again, on the flip side, the alternative is tempting sometimes, but not fantastic at all. there would be no one to break my fall, no one left to blame as well. ahhahahah.

and who will give you strength when you're not strong?

but who will watch over me when you've gone away?

you say you care for me.. you hide it well.